I entitled this post "Back at One" why?
For the nth time I'm starting all over again, my journey towards God I mean. Coz as you know, humans would probably get lost. In my case I got lost in a place called SIN, it was so dark in there full of needs you have to satisfy at all cost... I've been a prisoner of lust, I'm craving for things that I know were forbidden and as I commit myself to this earthly desires I fell into what they called as temptations.
Lack of time talking with God made me weak, my guilt for committing such sin started to eat the fire in me. I can't face HIM, repentance is something I'm not yet ready for all I could ever think of is...
...am I worthy of His forgiveness? If the next day I'd be doing the same mistake. I got tired of my own selfish drives that I fear God might be feeling the same thing. I felt pathetic and dirty, and talking to a Holy God is something I can't do not until today came.
After I don't know how long at last I opened and read the Bible and there it talks about forgiveness, that no matter how many times I commit sins God will be there ready to forgive me as long as I repent sincerely.
And I do! one of the reasons why I can't say say a single 'sorry', it's because I can't find the will to do so. But now, on my knees I regret every single sin I committed. I ask for forgiveness and there's this peace that comes within.
I may fall into temptations again but this time, I pray that God lend me strength to resist and win this battle together with Him.
Luke 17
